10 things that make me not want to believe in God.
1. A child sits crying alone wishing he could take back the day he trusted a man of the cloth.
2. The hopeless feeling I get as I think about my future.
3. Isreal and Palestine
4. Syria
5. My chest being filled with pain every time I breath your name. It tastes of warms memories and vodka.
6. When I was 6 I realized how hard the world is. I told my mother and she laughed saying I dont know difficult. She beat me with a pan. I then came to two more epiphanies.
7. My mom is bitch.
8. if some people have it worse than me, this world is not a place that wants humans around
9. Evolution
10. Mega churches

10 things that make me believe
1. The way my best friends body moves when drunk, a horrible and in graceful dance of near falls and hardy laughter. This is shortly followed by loud singing and tear soaked shirts as we spill our souls.
2. How she says gods name; loud and airy with barely breathe to waste on it. I unbury my mouth from between her legs to smile at her
3. On a clear day you could see the edge of the Tennessee river valley all its spines and ridges. You knew there were trees there from the green but you couldn't see a single one.
4. A couple who looks 90 years old is walking down the road holding hands. They both smile.
5. The way you hold my hand and for a moment I can see us walking down that road, barely capable of walking.
6. Brewing coffee over a fire surrounded by snow. The only warmth lays asleep in my tent or in my cup but I have the world.
7. My friends and i riding down the road 30 miles over the speed limit blasting The Black Parade screaming its words in a futile attempt to hear ourselves over the speakers
8. The way the sun slips over the Charleston bay reflected into a million different beams turning the world orange.
9. The way she would pet my hair as I held her pretending to sleep.
10. The way she breathed as I kissed her, like a jolt of lightning surged through. She smiles into my mouth, every fucking time.